The availability of huge free database on the internet network and exposure to readily reachable realtime audience; although in reality no one cares but we develop an absurd assumptive belief the other way. Human life, though feels and lived like it'd be for ever, it's short and not always dramatic with events. It is important to realize every thing you do small or big will have a long term effect which add up to the slot scenario. Start working on your want now as it is never too late to start.
私は実際に人を説得して私のことを好きになってもらうことができますし、私の視点では彼らは説得されています。しかし、悲観的なシナリオの最初の可能性を無視して、なぜか私自身がそのような努力をしている間に、しばしば壁にぶつかってしまうのです。そこで私は、意識的にガードを固めながらも、自分の不快な面や見えない面を意図的に人々に伝え、それまで接してきた自分の面の距離感や偽りに気づくためのツールとし、潮の満ち引きのように離れていくようにしています。近いようで無条件に遠いわけでもない、手の届く距離で、その面を知った上でまだ残っているとしたら、感謝以外に何ができるだろうか。ゆえに、そういう場合には、感謝しつつも、同じように戸惑ってしまう。
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ReplyDeleteI could actually persuade people into being fond of me or in my perspective they're persuaded. But ignoring the initial possibility of the pessimistic scenario somehow i myself often end up hitting wall while making that effort into doing so. So while i let my guards in conscious state I intentionally give off the hints to people about my uncomfortable and unseen side which might become a tool to be aware of the distance and falseness of sides of me with which they had been interacting with and thus drift away, like ebbs of tide. In proximity of reachable distance not so close but not unconditionally far either, if after knowing that side they still remain, what can I do other than being grateful. Hence, By such cases I'm grateful but also equally bewildered.